I have anxiety.
Not the way you thought this pretty flowered post would start, huh? Well, that’s where my journey to the sunflower field started started.
My mom is always thinking of amazing ways to spend our days. She’s been constantly finding amazing trips, free parks, and the perfect memory-making moments since I was young. It’s something that I don’t thank her enough for and completely envy.
Her most recent find was Maria’s Field of Hope. The 50-acre sunflower field in Avon, Ohio was planted in memory and honor of Maria McNamara. The little girl lost her battle with cancer in 2007 at the age of seven. The sea of yellow blooms in September — just in time for Childhood Cancer Awareness Month. It’s an amazing cause and the most beautiful way to celebrate life.
Believe it or not, I originally didn’t want to go.
My mom asked me all week if I wanted to go. I ignored it. Then she let me know that we’d be going Sunday. I still played it off. I even ignored her texts throughout the week asking about the event. It wasn’t me. It was my anxiety.
I was terrified to go. I’ve realized that my anxiety stems around social activities. The anxiousness instantly kicked in, since I didn’t know where I was going, how to get there, or who would be there. I was actually willing to miss walking through 50 acres of sunflowers with my mom because of anxiety. That’s how strong of a hold it has on me at times.
When I told her the morning of that I didn’t want to go, she told me to get ready and get in the car. Sometimes I need that push. I’m so incredibly happy that she did it. Although I was nervous while we were on our way, it helped having my mom there with me.
All the anxiety left my body, as soon as I saw the breathtaking 50 acres of sunflowers. I was absolutely stunned by the sea of yellow that spanned as far as I could see. We walked for over an hour and didn’t even get through the entire thing. It’s a magical moment that I know I’ll never forget.
Maria’s Field of Hope is the happiest place I’ve ever been. Everywhere you looked there were people smiling. It’s hard not to when you’re standing in the middle of sunflowers. The bees, 80 degree heat, and anxiety didn’t matter in that moment. It’s a feeling that I hope everyone has the chance to experience one day.
It wasn’t just the flowers that made this moment special. There were tags on the sunflowers throughout the entire field in honor of children that are battling or have lost their battle with cancer. Everyone has a different reason for being there, but the outcome was the same — celebrating life.
I can’t believe that I almost missed this because of my anxiety.
There were people meeting one another, taking pictures for each other, and just having general conversations. It’s incredible to me to think that all this comes at no cost at all. The free event involved nothing but nature and people. It was such a pure event that is so rare nowadays.
You know what also cost next to nothing? My outfit. I know, I know. It’s such an emotional moment and I ruined it. But I had to let you guys know about my secondhand outfit. Spoiler alert: I found the oversize plaid shirt from my September Thrift List, and I am obsessed.
I knew I didn’t want to wear anything that would take away from this amazing moment. I decided to jazz up your typical white tee instead. Tying the plaid shirt around my waist was the perfect way to take this outfit from summer to fall. The fact that the entire look cost less than $10 didn’t hurt, either.
This is only the beginning of the fun fall posts to come. I’m SO excited to show you guys the outfits that I have in store for the holiday season. What’s your favorite thing about fall? I’d love to hear about it in the comments!